London :(

I have a psychological thing with this city now...Its absolutely beyond the cognitive capacities of the average person to understand how much I dislike London. Its to the point that even passing through is unbelievably unpleasant to me. I fly into one of its airports that is like an hour outside of the city. I think that big financial scam of a city planned ahead of time to have all of its local airports so far away that you have to pay for overpriced bus tickets after arriving to actually get to the city...in this case my bus ticket is almost as much money as my flight from Sweden to Sodom. I have to get to another of its airports like an hour outside the city. There is a bus that runs from the one airport to the other. It costs about 40 dollars and is 3-4 hours depending on what time you take it. So its cheaper and takes less time to fly from Stockholm to London then it is to get from one part of London to the other. I would say that this is really stupid, but thats a bit tautological when speaking of London. I will say though that this is the first time I have dreaded a flight to the US not because of the flight itself, or the fact that I have to leave where I am (more on this later)...I am dreading this flight because of the 12 hours I have to spend in London. I am not 100% thrilled about leaving Stockholm either...but for legal purposes this is necessary anyway so its no big deal. I am just tired of having to be in different places all the time. When you only stay in a country for a couple months it feels like a several month lay-over. You cannot begin a life, you cannot make friends and such because you have to leave for almost two months...so you may as well wait till you get back. Its this waiting to have a normal life, going on for nearly two years now, that I am so tired of. This has nothing to do with this particular trip to the US because it is necessary as I said...its the necessity in general of it that is so frustrating. When I get back here it seems like it will just be something else. I am like an abused dog at this point...I expect the worse-case scenario in all cases...I am used to not knowing anybody where I am, having no human interaction, etc...I am really ready for it to end. To stay in the same place for a couple years at least without one to two month trips to other places.